*can't swim* *can't dance* *doesn't know karate*

nikolas | he/they | 17 | pansexual | nonbinary transmasculine (mascflux) | scorpio (20 nov) | leftist | neurodivergent | my carrd

hyperfixations: dear evan hansen, my chemical romance, six the musical

(if i disappear my parents blocked waterfall, & i'll drop by whenever possible but probably not often)

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nikolas (nik, niko)

he/they pronouns

dear evan hansen stage directions that resonate with me:

  • (Alana exits as Jared Kleinman approaches with the kind of practiced swagger that only the deeply insecure can pull off)

  • (like a helpless, heartbroken little kid)

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hello sorry 4 not being here itz been 20 days since i last spent fewer than ~5 hours a day on tiktok


why does my mom THINK im in my room all the time like ma'am every time i've come downstairs you've managed to deadname me, misgender me, and make fun of me in the span of five minutes


intrepid-inkweaver -

Every time I check the election results, I feel like I'm watching a slow motion horse race where the horses are wired to nuclear bombs.


so uh

> left parents a coming out letter
> dipped out to a friend's house
> had a panic attack
> anxiety level at a 7-8 the whole night
> NO RESPONSE
> THEY HAVENT MENTIONED IT
> im going to k word somebody


idioticsilverware asked:

NO IDEA IF UR GONNA SEE THE POST I TAGGED YOU IN BUT DID YOU GET FEATURED IN BECKSPECTRUMS ROBOT THERAPIST TIKTOK. BC W H O A.

YEA I DID FJHGJHDKFJ


transzoemurphy -

ms redacted pls say yes to my asking for a rec letter please i am going to cry so so hard


transzoemurphy -

alexa play totally fucked from spring awakening


ms redacted pls say yes to my asking for a rec letter please i am going to cry so so hard


ed tw, weight tw, calories tw


ive seen like 3 different videos on my fyp like "i had an ed and lost 60lbs 😔" "an0rexia made me lose 40lbs 😔" "my freshman year i lost 90lbs😔" pls im abt to snap i weigh more rn than i ever have and i still have an ed ✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️ im 20lbs up from my lw and i want 2 commit sewerslide ✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️ ill barely eat and not lose anything and seeing ppl be like "i only ate 1500 calories and lost ao much weight 😤" is like. listen i dont mean 2 imply that its not bad i just mean that the ed part of my brain is jealous as fuck like i wish that was me :-( but also i shpuld not :-(

sorry dropped my disordered thoughts ✌️😔✌️


transzoemurphy -

just saw some kids in tiktok comments say they were born in 2006 & now im hyperventilating and i feel sick WHAT is going on im not ACTUALLY scared of kids JDHJS?????????? but i like that my brain was like "🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨2006? WHAT THE FUCK 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨"


transzoemurphy -

@idioticsilverware
2014?!??!!?!?! th. thats not a real year


femdom who tells me to do my homework


overhearing my sister's uhhhhhhh whats it called. parent teacher conference. shes so baby


abt 2 cut vowels out f my sentences cmpletely. dnt need them. society has progressed pst the need 4 vowels


just saw some kids in tiktok comments say they were born in 2006 & now im hyperventilating and i feel sick WHAT is going on im not ACTUALLY scared of kids JDHJS?????????? but i like that my brain was like "🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨2006? WHAT THE FUCK 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨"


idioticsilverware -

carbonated egg whites


synthesystem -

please refrain from ever speaking again


web series about political cartoons: cult think they the only good guys :)

normal me: yea

my mentally ill brain:


i hate college emails more than anything else in the world


transzoemurphy -

they said "file your fucking fafsa or we'll kill u"


college emails = potion of annoy potential students


bot that will go through my "college" email folder after my application process is done and foreward every email they sent me back to them so they know how fucking ANNOYING it is


ms cherry: king u have a couple weeks to do this take ur time
me the monday before our thursday meeting, about to cry: SANG US TO SLEEP BUT NOW WE'RE STRESSED OUT WISH WE COULD TURN BACK TIME TO TH


babushka -

Song lyrics: Smashing through the boundaries

Me, an enby: Smashing through the binaries!!!


slaps roof of head you can fit so much nothing in here


i wish so badly to b able 2 just have som1 else do my schoolwork i am in ~hell~ and i dont like it


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